Spring. I was ready for spring. The blossoming of things, the smell of green grass, and moving forward on some things. So when we received a snow storm the first day of Spring, I could hear the words, “thank you for your patience.”
Seems I keep hearing that phrase.
People say I’m a person of patience, however, if they were inside my head watching my thoughts do somersaults and cartwheels, they would realize it’s only partly true. I get in the mode of not wanting to wait and when I do have to wait, it's usually about timing. It’s not the right time yet. Divine timing. Waiting for things to line up. Maybe not even meant to be at all. And all along I feel I’m running out of time.
I usually find these delays do bring the right connection, the insights and foundation needed first for learning and stability, some kind of growth in me that prepares me for the next steps or next level, and sometimes it’s a re-direction of my plans the new path even better than I could imagine.
I did take note of my external conditions realizing they were perhaps a representation of what needed to be going on inside. I’ve been reading about the bear and evidently my coming out of hibernation is suppose to be a slow one. A yawn and stretch and not dark roasted coffee speed.
A turning inward or at least a 3/4 turn to think about the direction I want to take before moving forward. A few road blocks, closing doors and shut doors have been placed in front of me while out of the corner of my eye, I see new doors opening. I have to trust I know what to do and to follow my heart.
“Bear medicine teaches us introspection, aiding us to digest our experiences and to discover that we have within ourselves the answers to all our questions. We all have bags of wisdom, if only we slow down and listen to what our intuition, our inner knowing voice is telling us. It is useful to be with yourself at times, so you can be yourself and are able to uncover your own answers to whatever challenge you are facing. On the other hand, just like Bear you need to know when to come out of ‘hibernation’ and to interact with others.” -- Ina Woolcott
Most the snow is melted but there is still a chill in the air. So some introspection this afternoon and then an evening with friends. An outward motion for starting to move forward.
Wednesday it will be almost 60 degrees. Let’s see what doors open that day. I’m ready. Bring on the coffee.
In the meantime, patience.
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