“Work on my newsletter.” Check
“Call libraries about doing a presentation.” Check.
“Know I’m Wonder Woman and realize I’m also human and need some downtime.”
I like my “to do” lists. They keep me organized and give me a sense of accomplishment as I check things off. And if I do something that wasn’t on the list, I’ll write it in and check it off. I have an organizer with space for daily entries where I write my “to do” lists. I usually try and cram as much as I can in the space allowed and then scribble sideways in the margins. I know I’ll never get it all done but there is a compulsion to do as much as I can.
Luckily yoga was on my list. Ok, I have to go to yoga. It’s written down.
I got there early. Rolled out my mat and sat among the other early arrivals. The teacher told us to go ahead and get into Savasana – a resting pose.
“You’ll get a head start over everyone else,” she said. Then smiled realizing what she said.
“Hurry up and wait,” she laughed.
I lay there thinking about all the things I needed to do creating new lists in my head. The last person came in feeling late but she was actually right on time. While in Savasana, the teacher calmly reassured us there was no where to be. Nothing to do.
“Sometimes we need to slow down or stop so happiness can catch up with us,” she said.
I had this image of “happiness” with running shoes huffing and puffing thinking “what the….I have a gift. I’m just trying to give this person a gift. Someone stop this person, trip them, whatever it takes.”
I thought about all the things I feel have tripped me up. Things seen as mistakes or stumbling blocks that actually in the long run were to my advantage. Waking up late one morning and missing my usual yoga class and trying out One Love Yoga where I now practice yoga and provide Reiki and workshops. Tired of looking online for a new apartment deciding to go out to eat instead and meeting people who guided me to my current apartment. Not being able to stay at someone’s house overnight while out-of-town and forming a new friendship by staying with someone else. Jobs not received. Relationships that ended.
So, if you feel like you are getting tripped up on things, maybe happiness is just trying to catch up with you.
My blog is accounts of my observations, living life, lessons learned, seeing the extraordinary in the ordinary, the paintbrush and palette for inspiration. Hopefully it opens you up to new worlds and lets you know that you are not alone in this one.